Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I Have Reached The Bottom Of The Barrel

It has been once again quite some time since I have posted, not because I did not have alot to say about what has been going on with me, the rape issues, etc. I have fallen into a bad place.

I have been in a depression and while some (therapists) seem to think it has to do with the rape, others think maybe not so much. What I do know is that I have never felt this bad and I have had many memories of my life before the rape that has caused great mourning.

I intend to start blogging again about what is happening in regards to myself, the rapist, etc. because although the rape is over the after effects, not just memories, seem to be wreaking havoc on my life.

I know I am not alone and there are many who suffer from being raped for years after. I was going to stop blogging as I believe I had written in the past, however, keeping a ongoing journal of all that occurs after rape I believe is an important thing.

The depression I have been experiencing lately has really taken hold and I have let it consume me. If I could shake it or use some better skills I probably would have written more.

I am starting anew with this blog, hoping to help others out there as well as myself with the new skills I am learning and the new legalities of the rape and rapist that have come up.

This was really meant to just touch base with anyone who reads this and to let them know I am here for me, for you, for ongoing knowledge of life after rape. I intend to have a series of posts coming up that of the events that have occurred since my last post. They will be up soon, however I may be moving the blog and that will be also mentioned if I decide to do so.

I hope all it well with all of you and I will get on the stick and share what has happened in the past months.

Victoria Placeo